January sucked. nuff said. i tried, gave up, tried, gave up. it was a never ending circle. but starting today, feb, i will will be fab. fab feb. yeaup. went out and bought myself a nice little notebook. i will become obsessed with my goal. it’s the only way. i will be a skinny minny!! yay!
THINK THIN. <3
my jobs have taken over my life. of course. i haven’t hung with my boyfriend in two weeks. it’s crazy. i’ll see him tomorrow briefly. i’m looking at prom dresses. i’m going to wow people with how good i look! fasting tomorrow with the exception of green tea and water of course. i’m also pretty sick, so i’ll be having vitamins and such every few hours. doing my lunges and squats when i wake up. xo night ya’ll!
THINK THIN. <3
i’m going to prom in june, so i want to fit into a dress that isn’t plus sized for once. i want everyone to be envious of me. i’m august i’m going to london, and i want to be thin and gorgeous and have silly english men hit on me. i’m going to make it happen. today was an okay day. i think i ate a bit too much at supper, but i was eating with my boyfriend and i can’t not eat around him (my cal intake today was 340, and the out take was 350 roughly). it drives me crazy because he’s always saying how i don’t need to lose weight and that he doesn’t care what size i am because i’ll always be beautiful. i don’t know how to put it other than i don’t feel beautiful at all. especially next to him. he’s gorgeous, and sooo in shape. he makes me feel so bad because i’m the exact opposite. and it depresses me to no end, which is why i’m doing this. for him, to feel beautiful next to him. i want him to be proud. to make his friends jealous. to make everyone want to be him because he gets to be with me. it’s going to happen. i went through my whole house tonight and gathered up all the ‘junk’ food and threw it all in a garbage bag and put it in the addition. i don’t want to see it ever again. i made a huge salad and i intend on eating it all day tomorrow. my cal limit tomorrow is 400. This abc diet is kicking my ass, but it will sooo be worth it. i can already hear the skinny jeans and prom dresses calling my name. anyone know what the weather is like in london in august? :)
this morning i woke up drank a litre of water and rode the exercise bike for 45 minutes! i should have went the full hour, but harry potter was over and i needed to pee really bad. but that’s okay! for breakfast i’m having a hard boiled egg a piece of cheese and come low calorie cranberry juice. I’ve also begun taking vitamins to stay regular. I’m taking calcium supplements too as i don’t really drink milk often. no carbs today! at least not from any grains! i’m going to be on the right track today! straight protein and vegetables! maybe some fruit too! i have to go chop wood today too, so there will be more calories gone! yippy!! :D hope you all have a fantastic skinny healthy day!!
THINK THIN. <3
i binged. tonight. i had a handful of m&m’s, pizza, sandwich, a bun, hashbrowns, and some tuna. went WAY over my 500 cal limit. feeling very discouraged and depressed. thinking about just heading to bed. i’m going to work my ass off tomorrow. i refuse to purge this early in or at all. bleh. i’m not happy. must think thin. i hope you all had a beautiful skinny day. tomorrow i will, just not tonight. i feel like such a failure. wah. i’m wallowing in self pity. i know i should just go work it off, but i’m exhausted and just bleh. bleh bleh bleh. yes.
THINK THIN. <3
