January sucked. nuff said. i tried, gave up, tried, gave up. it was a never ending circle. but starting today, feb, i will will be fab. fab feb. yeaup. went out and bought myself a nice little notebook. i will become obsessed with my goal. it’s the only way. i will be a skinny minny!! yay!
THINK THIN. <3
i’m doing great! i have a friend here actually doing it with me so it’s really helping me keep on track. i did one day one exercises of 30 jumping jacks and 10 crunches. not sure what that burned, probably not too much, but i’m going the bar later to see skratch bastid so i’ll be dancing AAAAALLL night. (: for food i had this pasta thingy 270 calories, plus a piece of toast with a small amount of butter and come cranberry juice. so i’m at 364 cals so far and my limit is 500. not too shabby!! i’m trying to get ready now not sure what i’m wearing yet and i’m beginning to freak out haha. kiki is coming in an hour! aaaahhh!!! hope you are all having a lovely skinny day. xo
THINK THIN. <3
my jobs have taken over my life. of course. i haven’t hung with my boyfriend in two weeks. it’s crazy. i’ll see him tomorrow briefly. i’m looking at prom dresses. i’m going to wow people with how good i look! fasting tomorrow with the exception of green tea and water of course. i’m also pretty sick, so i’ll be having vitamins and such every few hours. doing my lunges and squats when i wake up. xo night ya’ll!
THINK THIN. <3
i’m going to prom in june, so i want to fit into a dress that isn’t plus sized for once. i want everyone to be envious of me. i’m august i’m going to london, and i want to be thin and gorgeous and have silly english men hit on me. i’m going to make it happen. today was an okay day. i think i ate a bit too much at supper, but i was eating with my boyfriend and i can’t not eat around him (my cal intake today was 340, and the out take was 350 roughly). it drives me crazy because he’s always saying how i don’t need to lose weight and that he doesn’t care what size i am because i’ll always be beautiful. i don’t know how to put it other than i don’t feel beautiful at all. especially next to him. he’s gorgeous, and sooo in shape. he makes me feel so bad because i’m the exact opposite. and it depresses me to no end, which is why i’m doing this. for him, to feel beautiful next to him. i want him to be proud. to make his friends jealous. to make everyone want to be him because he gets to be with me. it’s going to happen. i went through my whole house tonight and gathered up all the ‘junk’ food and threw it all in a garbage bag and put it in the addition. i don’t want to see it ever again. i made a huge salad and i intend on eating it all day tomorrow. my cal limit tomorrow is 400. This abc diet is kicking my ass, but it will sooo be worth it. i can already hear the skinny jeans and prom dresses calling my name. anyone know what the weather is like in london in august? :)
